Tuesday, Feb. 24th, 2009 @8:07am

Hello everyone! I find myself struggling to get to the blog as I am not sure what to say anymore. JoLinda continues to improve, but slowly. Sometimes so slow I don't notice until I look back at where we were 2 months ago when I brought her home. Then I wonder what I haven't written about. She has now moved into her own room, just spent her 3rd night last night. It was not an easy adjustment for her, as her initiation, or lack of, has started again. Now she is enjoying her own room. Beau is now in our room on the floor on a matress. a week and a half ago she was put on new meds for antianxiety, and I think she is worse now. She continues to hold my arm or hand. Especially out of the house. She feels like everyone is stareing at her. And she continues to fight with everyone. Very low tolerance and doesn't understand jokes or playfulness at all. She fights with Jovi and Beau so much they do not want to be in the same room. However, yesterday was better. She is getting more helpful around the house. She helps with cooking, menu's, shopping, dishes, laundry, and a little vacuuming. Every so often, we see a glimpse of personality but we wish it was more. Socially she is very confused and unsure of herself. We are still trying to keep things rolling. It has been so good to read your comments on the blog. I find myself checking for those more than I blog myself. I appreciate your blogs, texts, phone calls and just the hello when you see us. That is what is keeping us going. Cathy, I cherish every word. Thank you! Matt, it was so good to see and read your blog. I hope everything is going well with your goals! (One of the wonderful aides who helped JoLinda in Rehab.) And thanks Ashley for continueing to follow JoLinda's progress. We appreciate you and your family. Tell everyone I love them. Diann it was good talking to you yesterday and I'm so glad Curtis is doing well. We love you all! Talk to you soon, Laurie

Friday, Feb. 13th, 2009 @ 7:38am

Friday the 13th, scarry huh! Well things are going o.k. JoLinda see's her doctor today. I hope that goes well. I think she is just going to chance her medicines. I believe I am on my own now. No more therapy at least I don't believe so. I will try to help JoLinda all I can. She has gotten more active this past week. We are doing the treadmill 3 times a day. She is doing it each time for at least 10 min. She is still helping with the cooking and some folding of clothes. To go shopping is really hard for her though. I still think it is just all the movement of people and the extra noise. She loses her confidence and hangs onto me, and is afraid I'll leave her. She is doing well, just doesn't have a lot of memory. I'm still hoping that it all comes back and for now just grateful she knows who I am. Well, I hope you are all doing well and Have a Happy Valentine's Day tomorrow. Love ya, Laurie

P.S. Pictures have been updated. Check them out!

Monday, Feb. 9th, 2009 @ 3:09pm

Thanks everyone for their comments. I really appreciate knowing that you are still watching anc following JoLinda's progress. It seems harder and harder to keep you all updated. I'm not quite sure why. This week has been o.k. As JoLinda says, "I'm alive and so we're good!" She is still having a hard time on doing much walking. We try to get outside and walk around the block but it has been cold the past few days. The treadmill stopped being interesting to her until about 2 days ago. She started just doing 5 min. but this morning was able to do 10. Her memory is still not there. Flashes of things and of memories come and go, but no real details. Makes it hard to talk to her about things, because to her either certain things haven't happened to her in her mind or she mixes things up. She is doing better with sitting in Sacrament. She was able to sit through the whole meeting yesterday and only said she didn't feel well one time. Later Gma came over and JoLinda couldn't remember going to church at all. Short term and long term memory still have a long way to go. She has been a lot less argumentative this week and we all enjoy that. She still is doing well on getting ready each day, but still can't remember things like her clothing. People and noise still bother her and make her really nervous. I think about all of you continually. Matter of fact, I'm having a hard time sleeping just going through everything, every detail, and every blessing we have been through over the last 3 months. You all have truly blessed our lives and I don't know how I can ever repay you. Love you all so much, Laurie

Monday, Feb. 2, 2009 @7:49am

I only have a minute, but I thought I would touch base with you all. I appreciate those of you still watching her blog. At times I feel so alone, but when I open the blog and see your comments I'm feel better. Like I can keep trying! Last week was especially dificult for me. JoLinda is however doing somewhat better. I can't explain how but just better. I did let her go visit her Grandma for a couple of hours, for the first time, while I took Jovi and Beau to the show on Sat. We needed a break. It was good for everyone concerned. We did just worry about JoLinda but we at least did it. JoLinda also somehow realized that I am her mom. She is however afraid that I am going to leave her and is paranoid. She is not letting me out of her sight. Most of the time, needing to hold my hand or arm too. I am so greatful to all of you who comment or call to see how we are doing or to keep me going. I don't beleive I'm strong enough for this, but as Wendy said in church yesturday, I believe people have been put in my life to help me and make me stronger. I rely on each one of you and count on your prayers when I'm too weak myself. Thank you all so much! Love ya, Laurie